ok, i shall declare now that i shan't blog very often from now on as you all can see. basically, it's because this IS my life. it's BORING. accept it. also, i don't always have things to blog about. blogging is all about inspiration and the right moment; just like writing an essay or poem. A good literary work can only be produced when the inspiration comes, and of coz good timing. and so, i shall blog when it comes.
so anyways, i have to admit that i sometimes cannot stand being in my school. or my course to be specific. it's not that it's not good or what. but it's just so ang mor! and i mean SOOOO ang mor. almost everybody there speaks in english. no, scrape that. EVERYBODY there speaks in english. PERFECT ENGLISH. it's not that it's not good, but it's some what like a culture shock you know. it's like i've been speaking mandarin in school for the whole 16 years of my life and now BOOM!! in comes the english speaking environment. i just simply can't take it. i speak english until i scared. i also dunno y. yes, i know i come from an english speaking family, i'm english educated, i do speak eng to certain friends in sec school; but never so much before! even so, i speak broken eng my whole life, english that i'm comfortable with. but now, i HAVE to speak PERFECT english or i'll be like an outcast or something, like SO CHEENA. oh god. can you imagine?
i was speaking on the phone to doreen once in mandarin while i was with my classmates, then suddenly one of my classmate said 'wha!u mean u actually speak in chinese?' omg...i mean duh? what was that supposed to mean? this is too much man. and then, there's once where my classmates tried to converse in chinese and they all had that funny funny accent you know. and they were trying to say penang in chinese but they didn't know so i told them it's bing cheng la. and they said 'wha!you mean you know? you're so good at it!' and all i did was tell them what the hell penang is in chinese. and they tried telling it to another classmate in cinese and all they got back was the 'plz-speak-english' look and a 'huh?'. nobody freaking knows chinese in my school! what is this world coming to?!
even the modules i'm doing are all about english - written communication, speech communication, etc. i'm learning grammar in DETAILS! paragraphs and what ever comes with it in DETAILS! phonetics again!! oh.my.god. no wonder you need at least an A in english in order to get into mass com. I'm drowning in english. god, and i thought english was SIMPLE. i was SO wrong man. those that want to enter mass com, please reconsider. well, that is unless u really love eng to the core and english is your life la, then i have nothing to say.
but all i can say now is - i need some chinese influence before i die in the world of english.