NARCISSIST.
carolyn
21
15 may
opal_amber32@hotmail.com
chapman university singapore.

YAKKATY YAK.




CHUMS.
aini
berenice
charlene
doreen
gengqin
geraldine
huimei
huixin
jessica
kaibeng
kelda
kimberly
kym
michelle
nazeeya
nicole
osborne
sarah
seowling
susanna
tishone

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CREDITS.
pictures : one
brushes : one two
pattern: one
designer : sweet_surrender
others : blogger blogskins

Monday, July 31, 2006

god peeps! you guys GOT to check this out! this is so funny, i practically laughed my ass off. haha.

http://www.metacafe.com/watch/139758/most_outrageous_moments_on_the_news/
http://www.metacafe.com/watch/143718/more_newsroom_bloopers/

you'll love it man. oh. btw, you know there's this bolly bolly CD in the market now? haha. seriously reminds me of pump up the banhgra. haha. it always is and always will be 'two CDs for the price of vone!'.

danced on the moon at 11:57 pm.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

i can smell it, taste it, and almost touch it. i can feel it all around me. can you feel it too? i've got 5 assignments/quiz left of which 2 will end next week! woots! i can feel freedom creeping up on me!! after next week when my socpsyc assessed tutorial and speech quiz is over, i only have to complete my final speech, writcom proposal and radio capsule! of which the later 2 are both dued on 14th august which is weeks away! woots! whahahaha! and then i'll have no exams or tests which means i get 2 weeks of extra holidays then the rest! woots! come on! say it with me. freedom freedom freedom! oooooo, it's sweet.

oh, by the way, did i mention that i don't need to go to school on mondays, tuesdays and thursdays anymore? i thhink after next week, i don't even need to go for wednesday classes anymore becasue there's no more lessons to begin with! ooooo it's sweet, oh so sweet.

danced on the moon at 11:43 pm.

Monday, July 24, 2006

i told you it's always me isn't it? whether it is your keyboard spoil or you wait fucking long. it's still my fault. it's always my fault.

like yesterday, when your keyboard screwed up on you, your instant reaction was to get mad at me. why? because i disturbed you and you told me not to. and your hand hit your keyboard. you were so irritated that your keyboard screwed up on you and you cannot play your stupid dota. yes, i admit it was i who keep on disturbing you but it is still you that hit your keyboard causing it to screw up! i don't see why you must throw a tantrum when all you need is to sit down and think logically to what the problem is. And the thing is you actually used that authoritative voice on me and asked me to go fix your keyboard for you. fine. when i was fixing your keyboard, i wanted to change your batteries and you said there was nothing wrong with the batteries but in the end it was still the batteries right? you're always right right? in the end all you said was a very insincere thanks and thanks but i don't need your thanks!

and today, you took pains to find me and waited very long for me because you were worried and i appreciate that, i really do. i'm even sorry that you did all those for me. the thing that got me really pissed was your freaking attitude. i told you before, if your attitude were better, mine would be too. but when i called you the first thing you said was "what's wrong with you?!" i mean hello? i dun even know what the hell is going on and why are you talking to me with that stupid attitude of yours when i don't even know what happened. If you were to talk to me nicely and explain the situation properly, i would have said i was sorry and even butter up to you. but no, you insisted on having your stupid attitude and what were you expecting me to say? i didn't even know what i did wrong and you come and treat me like that. of cox i was angry right? if you show me your attitude, i would show you mine. i told you before. and you said you msg me on msn but i didn't see cox my msn got problem! the school's network is so fucking slow, i can't even sign in for 5 secs. and it's MY fault. you msged and called me through my hp but my phone also got problem! it keeps on rejecting my SIM card for i dunno what fucking reason and i can't call or sms and vice versa and it's MY fault again. everything i do, everything i say, it's all MY fault. it's not that i don't wanna msg or call you. i told you before, i dun like to msg you so early in the morning cox i would wake you up. during break, i was doing my stupid writcom project and my phone apparently didn't like me today and decided to go on strike by rejecting my SIM card and i can neither call nor sms. it MY fault also right? and i finally received all your msgs now and get that it is NOW and you used your stupid authoritative voice again, threatening is NOT going to get you anywhere. i hate people to threaten me and i utterly hate people to scold me fuck, it is a total insult. and my reply to your stupid insult is NO THANK YOU!

whatever la. you can't seem to be happy with whatever i do so why bother? everything is MY fault ok? you don't want to care about me anymore right? i don't need to msg or call you anymore right? okay. that is what you said and that is what you'll get. beware what you wish and DON'T regret.


`when will this river of tears stop falling?
where can i run so i won't feel alone?
can't walk away when the pain keeps calling,
you keep hurting me over and over again.

danced on the moon at 3:56 pm.

Friday, July 21, 2006

the things that happen whilst taking public transport never fails to amaze me. The events that happen today are so unbelievable that even i don't think will ever happen.

Firstly, i took a cab home today. the first thing that i noticed when i first got in the cab was the strong stench in that small enclosed space i was in. the odour of PEE was so strong, i thought that the cabby just peed in his pants or something. i noticed the driver didn't say anything about the smell so i pressumed that people who carry the smell usually don't know that they DO carry the smell. so ya. also, not that i wanna say, but the driver himself looks like he really did peed in his pants because he looked so, pardon me but retarded. his hairstyle was literally bowl cut and his specs were so huge, they were fashionable once in the 1990s. his dressing was also very retro, its as if he's stuck in the past or something. and the scary thing is for a retarded looking driver he surely knows how to speed. OMG. he's like totally insane on the road! i was so afraid it was going to be the last time i see the world. he was driving like 100km/h on normal roads la! he anyhow cuts the lane here and there, i was so afraid that i'd die there and then. he just couldn't seem to focus on the road, driving straight. he was always looking at the rear view mirror, cutting lanes and fidgeting with the whatever stick it is called. i mean, its one thing to die in a car accident but its another thing to die smelly in a car accident. i sure don't wanna reek of pee when i die man.

Secondly, i was taking this bus to school today and the guy sitting infront of me was sleeping and resting his head on the backrest. and oh my, was i in for a shock alright. i noticed that the backrest had flakes of white colour stuff and i looked up and saw the guy's head. the bus was shaking and so was his head and oh my, when his head shook, it was as if snow had arrived in singapore! omg. his dandruffs were falling everywhere! so disgusting! imagine raining dandruff. ewwwww.

Lastly, when i thought its all over, i took 238 home after supper with kim and the driver...woo! power man. i've never seen a more tok gong driver. i dropped 70 cents into the box because i didn't bring my ez link out. and the driver stopped me. he asked me how much i put in and i said 70 cents. and he said i pay student price right? so i said ya. and he asked to c my ez link card. i mean, hello?! what the hell do you think i'm paying in coins for? of cox i didn't bring my ez link card out right? what, think i'm trying to test his hearing by throwing in coins izzit? stupid people ask stupid questions. i hate people asking me rhetorical questions. duh?! ugh. best part is he said i took his bus ytd also and i also forgot to bring my ez link. hello?! it's either you like me too much and start fantasising about me appearing in your dull boring life everyday or you are just getting plain old and your brain cells are starting to die on you. i mean, excuse me? i've never taken bus 238 for how many days already?! today is the first time i step foot on it again. and if you still insist that it was me the other time then all i have to day is good luck and you better go to a temple and pray. another thing is he ask me what level am i studying so i not so stupid to say poly and pay more money and i said JC.and so here comes the most tok gong part. ready? he said "what's that?" OMG. please give me a minute while i faint.

danced on the moon at 12:49 am.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

hai, forget it, i'm not going to stay angry. i can't stay angry. i don't even remember why i was so angry in the first place. that's just me. i'm me. accept me. love me for who i am. it's all up to you now. all up to you.

danced on the moon at 1:57 pm.


RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

danced on the moon at 1:43 pm.


it's always me isn't it? you never understand. i doubt that you ever will. don't you understand? it's not the fact that you never come. it's the fact that you said you will and you didn't. i know, i understand you fell asleep but you said you would be awake. i told you i would msg you and i did. it is you who didn't see the msg and is it my fault? you're saying as if everything is my fault. i hate it. i hate your empty promises, i hate your lousy attitude. i know you will say that i already know you got this attitude and yes, i do. but it really affects me ok? this attitude of yours. and if it wasn't for your attitude, i wouldn't even have given you attitude. so think before you speak. to you, i'll always be younger ALWAYS. i always never understand things in your eyes. i'm always the one being unreasonable. i'm always the one giving attitudes. and i didn't FUCKING hang up on you can? which part of lift no reception do you not understand?! the thing i hate most in the world is being maligned ok? so get your facts right before you start shouting and accusing people. I HATE IT! since you cannot make it then i go and do my project la. i don't wanna be marked down ok? i agreed to go to a doctor because you said you would meet me and bring me there. you didn't show up so i don't wanna go la. i have my project to do anyways. and i DON'T wanna go down to your house and meet you because the way you put it makes me feel that i'm obliged to do so and i'm not ok? i've my life to lead, i have to do my work. so do you, i don't want to be the clingy little girlfriend that bugs you everyday. you say i'm always giving you attitude but who was it that gave me a reason to show my attitude? ans yes. i'm NOT a person who gets angry easily, ask around, how many people have seen me really angry before? so think before you speak. next time you wanna do something, think before you act, choose your words carefully. i'm not saying that i am always right or that you are i the wrong, all i want os for you to understand. i'm a girl, i have my own pride, my emotions, my feelings. i don't care whatever reasons you give. you've hurt me and that's that. i don't wanna get hurt anymore so please, don't even try to msg or call me if you wanna pick a fight. and please don't phrase your words until i just wanna put down the phone. please think of my feelings before you say anything. i'm not goign to call or sms you or even pick up your call or reply your sms because i love you and loving you hurts. ='(

danced on the moon at 12:47 pm.

Monday, July 17, 2006

Collin raye - love me (damn nice song, listen already always cry. ha.)


I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I love your Grandma so.

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said :

"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again

I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears

"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again

I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

danced on the moon at 1:42 pm.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

don't you feel "the lion sleeps tonight" and "stand by me" are such wonderful songs? haha. ooooo~let's boogie~! haha..


me and jessi.

osborne. ming liang. doreen.

see the world in black and white.

ha. they're supposed to be a pair of gay couple fighting.

oh wells.

the wonders of sepia.

group shot.

hahahahaha. negative me.

everybody loves kfc.

oh!

well, everybody loves macdonalds too.



huh?

danced on the moon at 10:03 pm.

Monday, July 10, 2006

Aslyn - That's when i love you =)


When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you...endlessly

And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget im waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cuz heres my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cuz that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cuz the movie made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you can't quiet match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you more than you know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cuz heres my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cuz that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

that's when i love you
when nothing baby
nothing you do can change my mind
the more i learn the more i love
the more my heart can't get enough
thats when i love you
when i love you
no matter what

danced on the moon at 2:31 pm.


oh my! great news! i passed my paragraph exercise which i thought i would screw up! woots! i passed! 22.5/40! but he minus 2 marks for palgarism..but i still pass! woots! whaahahha! writcom is starting to look good for me. =DD

danced on the moon at 10:04 am.

Saturday, July 08, 2006

i would very much like to think that this is our song. this is THE song that you sang to me even before we started, i'd like to think that this song is dedicated only to me. is it? is it my song? is it our song?


MARCOS HERNANDEZ - If You Were Mine


If you were mine,
I'd be your everything and you'd be the only thing that I would ever need
If you were mine,
I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

Ohhh Yeaaa
Everything I dreamed about
Everything that I talked about
One thing I can't live without
I wanna get closer to you
Can't stand being far away
Knowing that you don't feel the same way
Questioning bring tears to your eyes

If you were mine,
I be your your everything and you be the only thing that I would ever need
If you were mine,
I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

Ohhh Yeaaa
All words I sing about
All that is that I write about
Only thing I wanna hear about
So that I can get closer to you
I know that there is someone else, but he's only thinking of himself
Doesn't make any sense for you to be lonely

If you were mine,
I be your your everything and you be the only thing that I would ever need
If you were mine,
I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

Ohhh Yeaaa
Let me be the one to share your hopes and dreams with
You'll never be alone again, cuz' I will hold you endlessly
Please don't be afraid to let your brokenheart guide you
Into these open arms that long to surround you, baby!!

If you were mine,
I be your your everything and you be the only thing that I would ever need
If you were mine,
I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want


to those who dunno this song, you should download it and listen, i think it's very nice. very sweet. =)

danced on the moon at 12:04 am.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

i totally cannot stand heavy colour light friend people. like, totally. ugh.

danced on the moon at 10:38 pm.

Sunday, July 02, 2006

This osborne ah...zui du fu nan ren xin ah..suan le...last time i din do ur tag cox it was all in bloddy chinese! this time i shall be merciful and do it..and by the way, i din make those tags by myself lo! -_- haha.

Currents:
Current Mood: happy
Current Taste: cha ye dan! woo! =DD
Current Clothes: beatty's sec 3 camp tee(oooo, i love bty.) and op shorts.
Current Desktop: acer.
Current Toenail Colour: all natural baby.
Curent Time: 1714
Current Surroundings: in an air conditioned room with the typing of the keyboard the only sound heard.
Current Annoyances: nothing?
Current Thoughts: wtf?

First:
First Best Friends: haha. i'm going to kill osborne for letting me do this.
First Crush: some K1 kid that you wouldn't know.
First Movie: er...some werewolf flick. scared the shits out of me back then.
First Lie: oooo, i'm such an angel.
First Music: er...english oldies...beatles? ha..

Lasts:
Last Cigarette: no ain't do.
Last Drink: ice water
Last Car Ride: taxi to orchard.
Last Crush: er..
Last Movie: superman!! teng teng teng!
Last Phone Call: to yu wen.
Last CD played: the click five.
Last song played: yellow card's only one?

Have you ever:
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: haha, i'm no les man.
Have you ever broken the law: well...i always jay walk.
Have you ever been arrested: does by mr singh for being late count?
Have you ever skinny-dipped: no way.
Have you ever been on TV: you'll be suprised.
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: er...no?

5 things you are wearing: shirt, shorts, underwear, contact lenses and air.
4 things you done today: eat, watch movie, talk on phone, cracked stupid jokes.
3 things you can hear right now: my typing, the computer buzzing and somebody playing ps 2.
1 thing you do when you are bored: entertain myself.

5 guys.
kim(i no u wanna slap my xiong bu again).
doreen.
susanna.
hui xin.
jessica.

danced on the moon at 5:15 pm.

Saturday, July 01, 2006

i'm watching "my name is earl" now and this karma thing is getting me cracked up. you should watch it too. saturday 10pm.

danced on the moon at 10:24 pm.