it has been a long week. i've been bogged down by many things. many projects to do. i almost can't breath. despite all these, i look forward to the weekends. why? because then i get to see you again. you said you'll book out by 8. yet by 9, there is still no news. finally you call. but i wish you didn't.
i know you are frustrated. i know. I UNDERSTAND. i have my frustrations too. do you really think my life is that carefree all the time? you want me to understand, but do you understand mine in the first place? all i wanted was to talk to you and see you again. instead, you vent your frustrations on me and say that if i want to meet up i can take the last train to your house. if i don't then don't bother. how would you feel if you were me?
you say i am not understanding enough and you want me to be more understanding. but have i not been understanding? all i want is you not to vent your frustrations on me. i understand army life is very difficult and hard but don't vent it on me. have i not been understanding and staying with you all weekends even if what we do is just stay at home? you don't bring me out anymore and that's fine with me. i know you are tired. have i not been understanding by waiting for you at home the whole day even if i didn't even hear a word from you at all? and the moment you call you vent your frustrations on me. is this what i deserve?
i really don't ask for much. all i wanted to hear was just a sorry. but instead all i got was more scolding and asking me to be more understanding. most importantly you ask me what is MY problem? i really am very disappointed and hurt.
you really wanna what's my problem? my problem is YOU.
i'm hurt yet addicted to YOU.