humans are weird creatures. we are the smartest beings on the planet and sometimes, we just get too complacent of that and forget our feelings.
it's called selective memory. sometimes, when we really don't want to remember parts of our memory or someone, our brain just forgets. it purposely forgets so we don't have to think about it anymore, so that we can stop hurting for whatever reason. but yet, subconsciously, we know it is still there. it is still somewhere deep inside our heads and we just simply refuse to call it back up and remember it.
sometimes, what we choose to remember are the negative sides and memories of people, and we tend to forget the good and positive side of that person that we once fell in love with. and more often than not, it is seen during a parent-child scenario where the parents always harp on the bad things that the kid did and forget about the good things. it happens to everybody, on anyone. which is, i conclude, bad for ALL our health.
for example, i was so busy getting annoyed with this friend of mine over the past few weeks over very simple things and i subconsciously, just refused to have any contact with him unless necessary and at times, even brushing him off as a forgotten person. but today, when i finally got to talk to him normally again, i begin to realise what i have been missing the whole time.
while i was busy shutting him out of my world, his world was still revolving very finely i might add, without me. and after talking to him, i realised that i actually really do miss him a lot. i miss talking to him, i miss seeing him because i have SO not seen him for SO long, i miss gossiping about stuff to him, i miss his logical reasoning about my problems, i miss his shoulder to cry on, i miss him being there for me, i miss him sharing his problems with me and most importantly, i miss being a part of his world and him being a part of mine.
people change and as we grow, we may or may not drift further apart. it is very hard to predict. and for a period of time, we grew apart. but i realise that, because of the strong bond of friendship that we have in the past, as soon as we started talking again, it felt like nothing ever happened before. like we never drifted away from each other at all. talking to him was very easy and we talked as if we were just like before. and i like that kind of feeling.
and it is because of friends like him that really make my life complete, fun and worth living every minute of it. and so, here is a very special post to friends like these.
DOREEN, JESSICA, MING LIANG, OSBORNE, SHONE
you guys are like the bestest friends that anybody could wish for and over the past 6 years of knowing you all, i never regretted any moment of it. you guys were there for me no matter what, and i really mean no matter what. you guys were there to share my joys and my woes. my fears and my thoughts. and i really thank you for that. you all never gave up on me and were really my listening ears and shoulders to cry on when i needed you all.
Doreen: although after going to poly, we hanged out lesser than usual and were all busy with our school work and new friends, you never fail to be there for me when i needed you and thank you. you were always ready with your stupid nonsense and jian zui ba for everything. haha. we know each other inside out and there is nothing between us left to hide. =)) though you have been MIA for quite sometime, because you are always uncontactable even with smoke signal and you live in a place where even the flowers refuse to grow, i know you will still be there for me. you are still my bestest friend and i love you many many. ha.
Jessica: San pat woman! i swear you are THE most san pat woman i have ever known in my entire life. if anything, poly has made our friendship grow even stronger because of all the whining and bitching we have about school and people! hahahah! your sharp tongue never fails to amuse me and you were ALWAYS there for me when i needed you and i really thank you for that. you never fail to cheer me up when i'm sad and scold those bastards for me. ha. i still insist we go on more shopping trips! hehehe! you are also one of my bestest friend and i love you many many too! =DD *giggles*
Ming Liang: you, my friend, have REALLY changed. appearance wise and character wise. i shall never again say that beatty boys are ungentlemenly. you, have successfully broken the horrible curse! heheheh! you've open doors, helped me with my laptop w/o me asking, walked slowly with me because my feet were hurting due to the stupid heels and placed yourself at the more dangerous end of the road when with me. you, my friend, have DEFINITELY changed. and it's good. REAL good. =D you have become more conscious of your appearance and obviously it has been working like a charm for you ever since! congrats man! hahaha! you were the only guy in our gang that could ALWAYS be there for me physically. partially also because you live in tpy also la. haha. but that is not the point. ha. whenever i needed a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on, you were always there for me no matter what time of the day it is. you were ALWAYS there and i love you for this. i still remember our night escapades to the esplanade! haha! it was fun and we should do it more often. this time with the WHOLE gang so we can ton! haha! but really, thank you. you were both rational and empathetic to my problems which was really amazing considering that most guys could only do the first. ha. whoever becomes your girlfriend is not going to suffer. ha. i love you many many! =DD
Osborne: hello stranger. long time no see. the 18th is coming soon. are you excited or what?! hahahaha! by then we can go celebrate your freedom and stuff ourselves silly with all the different kind of fast foods! hahahaha! i swear, we need to watch the simpsons together! hahaha! how's your baby mouse coming? i hope you are training REAL hard cox i don't see anything in your pictures! =Pp i hope the next time i see you your hair will have improvements! haha! i want the shuai shuai osborne back! hahah! anyways, i still remember the silly phone calls that we had during our sec school days and you hear a ghost in my house. hahahah! talk about ghosts in houses. yours is DEFINATELY haunted man. i swear. hahaha. oh! and i miss the sembawang night skies too! sitting at your house downstairs playground talking about nonsense and just enjoying the view were just amazing peaceful. you were always there for me when i needed you too and were always the rational one. i really thank you for that. =)) hang out soon k? remember i'll always love you! =D
Shone: shone, shone, shone. watching vcds at my house is becoming a habit for you. HAHAHAHA. i hated your haunted school show. never EVER borrow this kind of shows ever again. ha. you i sadly say, are still the most childish among the three guys. SERIOUSLY. grow up and be a man man! do the right thing! ha! learn from ml! ha. other than talking A LOT of cock and VERY loudly, you are still a pretty decent chap. you too were there when i needed you and thank you! =DD but! I STILL HATE YOU FOR MAKING ME WALK IN MY HEELS FOR FUCKING LONG AND STILL COMPLAIN SAY I WALK SLOW WHEN YOU WERE OBVIOUSLY LOST! hahahaha! and also, i will always remember the jing dian actions and words that your mother said to me. hahahaha! thinking back, it was damn funny. hahaha. i love you! =))
SUSANNA, HUI XIN, SEOW LING
hello! long time no see too! hahahah! yes, and also for the past 6 years cept for hx, 4, you guys were too, my pillar of strength. band has brought all of us closer together and band was made enjoyable because of people like you all! =DD you all were also there when i needed you, i love you all many manys!
Susanna: sana! it's always you whose making those little things for us to keep and now i guess it is my turn to do or rather say something to you. =)) before i say anything, you know i love you many many and will always too, be one of my bestest friends ever. =)) because of you, i became a bad person. hahaha! i became super lame and high sometimes all thanks to you huh. hahaha. you were ALWAYS there for me when i needed you and you were also one of my closest confidants over the past few years. even though we both have decided to take different paths in life after secondary school, you know you will always be in my heart. just like i know i will always be in yours. you and your nonsense was always there to cheer me up and you seem to know just what to do exactly too and i will always love you for that. =)) i still remember the endless times i was at your house doing basically nothing but jut watching tv. haha. i see your brother has SERIOUSLY matured man. hahaha. i love you loads and you know you can count on me for any of your problems. meet up soon ks? love you! =DD
Hui Xin: hello! HAHAHAHAHAH! you and your nonsense also la. always there for me when i needed you. never doubted or questioned my choice in whatever i do and always supported me for it. i is love you many many one lors. hahaha. JC and poly never seem to put cracks into our friendship because you are still as nonsense as ever! hahaha! =DD you are a very matured thinking girl and i think you know it too. hehehe. it's just like what kelvin said. me and you are like total opposites in characters but yet we still can be best of friends! hehehe! personally, i just think kelvin science fail cox he dunno that opposites attract. =)) i love you many manys and thanks for being there for me! =DD
Seow Ling: OMG SL!!!!!! hahahah! are you happy to see your name in my blog? hahaha! after all these years, you are STILL as nonsense and as funny as ever. hahaha. although after going to JC, i can see visible signs of stress and emo-ness, haha, but you are still basically the same person i fell in love with since sec 1! =DD you were always da fang and ti tie. like a guy. haha. and i know, i know. you never become a guy wasted cox you are SOOO romantic and gentlemenly and of cox not forgetting shuai. HAHAHHA. i miss my fellow taurus-nian! hahah! i remember going to your house endless times too! haha! no matter for band or work or just play! haha! i still remember you say your father say i got hao ren lian lo. ahahhah! =Pp you too were always my listening ear when i needed you and i thank you for that. i is love you many many de worrsss!! hahah! meet up soon ks? love you! =DD
Kimberly Lui Yi Qin
hello! whahahahhaha! i have know you the shortest among all the above listed lo! haha! and our friendship although shorter have been through hell of a lot more than any of the above mentioned. haha. but i am glad. cox without them, we wouldn't have such a strong friendship now! =DD for the past 3 years? you have been my pillar of support too. then it comes to my problem you were always straight with me and i thank you for that because sometimes, i really needed it. we did tons of CRAZYYYY stuff together and i still remember all! i remember our drinking sessions at the playground, i remember being in your mom's black list, i remember bluffing ml n melvin that doreen was drunk (HAHA), i remember indo chine and of cox, i remember our durian sessions. hehehe! you were a good friend to crap with and share my thoughts. you too are one of my bestest friend! =DD i love you many many worrrssss!! =DDDD
friendship is a very difficult thing to maintain. but if we maintain it well, just like a flower, it will blossom. and it know it takes effort ant time to maintain friendships but with friends like you guys, no matter how much time is definitely worth it! =DD