heartbreak lullaby
Friday, August 31, 2007
HEARTBREAK LULLABY - A*TEENS
In the still of the night
I can almost feel you lying next to me
Like it used to be
And it's hard to let go
When there's always something there reminding me
How things could be
I've tried to get you off my mind
I've tried to play my part
But every time I close to my eyes
You're still inside my heart
Why can't I laugh
Why must I cry
Every time we say goodbye
Why does it rain
Here in my heart
Every day that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
What will it take to make you see
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby
Like the stars in the sky
You still keep on shining down your light on me
but out of reach
And I know that in time
You will come back to your senses, see the signs
And change your mind
I try to look the other way
And keep my heart on hold
But every time I'm close to you
I lose my self control
Why can't I laugh
Why must I cry
Every time we say goodbye
Why does it rain
Here in my heart
Every day that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
What will it take to make you see
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby
pls ignore the stupid video. it is the song that matters.
In the still of the night
I can almost feel you lying next to me
Like it used to be
And it's hard to let go
When there's always something there reminding me
How things could be
I've tried to get you off my mind
I've tried to play my part
But every time I close to my eyes
You're still inside my heart
Why can't I laugh
Why must I cry
Every time we say goodbye
Why does it rain
Here in my heart
Every day that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
What will it take to make you see
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby
Like the stars in the sky
You still keep on shining down your light on me
but out of reach
And I know that in time
You will come back to your senses, see the signs
And change your mind
I try to look the other way
And keep my heart on hold
But every time I'm close to you
I lose my self control
Why can't I laugh
Why must I cry
Every time we say goodbye
Why does it rain
Here in my heart
Every day that we're apart
Why can't it be
Just you and me
What will it take to make you see
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby
These are the words
To my heartbreak lullaby
pls ignore the stupid video. it is the song that matters.
danced on the moon at 3:34 am.
都是为我好吗？
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
danced on the moon at 3:31 am.
不想让你知道
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
danced on the moon at 1:56 pm.
i hold my breath, to stop the pain
Monday, August 27, 2007
this shall be the last emo entry i shall have on my blog. i shouldn't let the sadness and pain engulf me. it feels so weird inside of me. it's as if there's something missing within me and i can't replace it anymore. everything i do will make it hurt even more. the 4 walls i face will accentuate the pain even more until i feel as if i cannot breathe. this has never happened before. something is missing in my life and i can't replace it anymore. crying my eyes out doesn't help either cox it just accentuates the pain and i'll disfigure myself because it makes my eyes all swollen and puffy after that. and the 2 hours of sleep i had last night doesn't help.
This will be the first and the last post about Jeremy. thanks for all the memories you gave me. sorry for all the sorrow i've caused you. i never meant to hurt you. thanks for everything. i wish you well in everything you do in the future.
"what hurts the most, was being so close. And having so much to say, and watching you walk away. And never knowing, what could've been. and not seeing that loving you, is what i was trying to do."
i believe that time will heal all wounds. i will get better. in time.
i hold my breath, to stop the pain.
danced on the moon at 11:51 pm.
what hurts the most
danced on the moon at 3:35 pm.
1 year, 4 months, 12 days.
如果我不爱你的话，为什么我的心会那么痛？
danced on the moon at 1:40 am.
a walk to remember
Sunday, August 26, 2007
LOVE
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres"
1 Corinthians 14:12
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres"
1 Corinthians 14:12
danced on the moon at 10:30 pm.
fuck
i should NEVER have taken off. i should NEVER have push both my jobs away. i should've just went to work anyway. i could've been using my time to make money instead of letting YOU SQUANDER my time away. i am fucking wasting my time JUST waiting for you at home. hoping that you'll come and sweep my feet away. but no, you are still sleeping. this proves how much i mean to you ok? you say i never put down my pride, i never take the initiative to make up. but it is I who called YOU today when you were STILL sleeping at 2 plus pm in the afternoon ok? so don't say i don't care. you have no right to.
“我迟起也是我的错，什么都是我的错” no, it's not your fault. it's mine. 什么都是我的错，我只是想要一点关怀，也是我的错。这一切都是我的错！你满意了吧？
i hate you. i fucking hate you. don't ever come and find me again.
='(((((((
“我迟起也是我的错，什么都是我的错” no, it's not your fault. it's mine. 什么都是我的错，我只是想要一点关怀，也是我的错。这一切都是我的错！你满意了吧？
i hate you. i fucking hate you. don't ever come and find me again.
='(((((((
danced on the moon at 2:26 pm.
他还是不懂
要说什么
杯子都已经空了
闭上眼睛心里下起大雪天寒又地冻
是不是到了
爱情结帐的时候
只剩下各自买单的寂寞
为什么当我推开门
他没有来拉住我
他还不懂还是不懂
离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔
他还不懂永远不懂
一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我
要用什么
融化这一片沉默
在四周的冷空气里叹息化成烟飘走
过去的种种在心里滚成雪球
怕还没说话泪就会先流
爱不是他给得不多
是不知道我要什么
他还不懂还是不懂
离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔
他还不懂永远不懂
一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我
都是背了太多的心愿
流星才会跌的那么重
爱太多心也有坠毁的时候
他还不懂还是不懂
离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔
他还不懂永远不懂
一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我
在第一时间拯救我
杯子都已经空了
闭上眼睛心里下起大雪天寒又地冻
是不是到了
爱情结帐的时候
只剩下各自买单的寂寞
为什么当我推开门
他没有来拉住我
他还不懂还是不懂
离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔
他还不懂永远不懂
一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我
要用什么
融化这一片沉默
在四周的冷空气里叹息化成烟飘走
过去的种种在心里滚成雪球
怕还没说话泪就会先流
爱不是他给得不多
是不知道我要什么
他还不懂还是不懂
离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔
他还不懂永远不懂
一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我
都是背了太多的心愿
流星才会跌的那么重
爱太多心也有坠毁的时候
他还不懂还是不懂
离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔
他还不懂永远不懂
一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我
在第一时间拯救我
danced on the moon at 1:06 pm.
='(
so this is how much i mean to you.
i gave up BOTH my work just to spend more time with you. you didn't want to spend your time with me on friday. you kept pushing me away. you didn't spend it with me today. you told me on friday that today you will find me after you find your dad. so i wait. because of you, i didn't go to work today. because of you, i stayed at home the whole day. because of you, i am still up at this hour. and you still dare to ask me why am i not sleeping. so this is how much i mean to you. everything you say to me is bull. don't ever say anything if you don't mean it. you didn't even have the decency to call or sms for the WHOLE day to even tell me that you are staying at your dad's and you're not coming to find me. will a simple sms like that kill you? i could've slept way earlier if i wasn't waiting for you. and you? you went to sleep just like that. you didn't even think about me. you didn't even have the decency to tell me. and you still DARE to ask me why am i not asleep? why did i call you? why am i so guai lan? well get this.
YES. I AM ANGRY WITH YOU. IN FACT, I AM VERY ANGRY. BUT MORE THAN THAT, I AM VERY DISAPPOINTED IN YOU.
you say i don't care about how you feel. do you care about mine? you are in no position to call me immature k? you didn't even try to msg or call me back after i hanged up on you. i am really very disappointed in you. i bet you are thinking that it's my fault again. that i'm acting up again. well so be it.
don't even try to call me again. i will NOT speak to you.
sometimes i wonder why i even bother.
='((((((
danced on the moon at 3:15 am.
songs
Saturday, August 25, 2007
QUE YANG
YI YAN SHUN JIAN
i think xiao jing teng is such a fabulous singer. i heart this sing too! ah mei and xiao jing teng is such a powerful combo la. cao ge zhuo qu summor. woo!
danced on the moon at 2:14 pm.
tell me what can i do to make you happy.
danced on the moon at 1:51 am.
tagged
Thursday, August 23, 2007
kim is a jian jian woman.
tag #1:
4 Jobs I've had in my life
1. waitress.
2. cash register doctor.
3. road show presenter.
4. moon cake seller.
4 Movies I can watch over and over again
1. The Simpsons Movie
2. The Spongebob Squarepants Movie.
3. Flushed Away.
4. A Walk to Remember.
4 Places I've been on Vacation to
1. Malaysia.
2. Batam.
3. Perth.
4. Sentosa. HAHAHAHAAHAH!
4 Of my Favorite Dishes
1. Tom Yam Soup.
2. Claypot Vermicelli.
3. Mussels.
4. Crabs.
4 Places I would like to Visit
1. Europe.
2. North America.
3. South America.
4. Australia.
4 Most overused Words
1. Good..very good.
2. Fuck
3. Na bei.
4. wtf.
4 TV Shows I love to Watch
1. CSI.
2. Ghost Whisperer.
3. Supernatural.
4. Scrubs.
4 Bloggers I am Tagging
1. Jessica
2. Kelda
3. Charlene
4. Sarah
tag #2
List out the top 5 presents you wish for (not in order of importance):
1. straight hair. =(
2. Clothing! =D
3. Money! hehehehe!
4. BRA! HAHAHAHAHHAA! i'm serious.
5. Games!
Answer the following questions:
The person who tagged you is:
Kimberly.
Your relationship with her is:
unusual friend. oh ho h0!
Your 5 impressions of Kim:
1. Funny.
2. Alcoholic.
3. Listening Ear.
4. Chiller.
5. Talk cock.
The most memorable thing she had done for you:
Walked bare-footed along the streets of tpy cox she lent me her slippers as my heels were killing me. =))))
The most memorable words she had said to you :
she's the ultimate champion. HAHAHAHHA!!!
If he/ she becomes your lover,you will:
sing for her. HAHAHAHAHA! *winks*
If he/ she becomes your lover, things he/ she has to improve on will be:
stop wearing sports bra. dolling herself up.
If he/ she becomes your enemy, you will:
steal all her sports bra. HAHAHAHA.
If he/ she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
She prevented me from watching my Spongebob movie again. haha!
The most desired thing you want to do for him/ her now is:
Give her oil for her exams.
Your overall impression of him/ her is:
ultimate champion. hehehe!
How do you think people around you will feel about you?
loud, cold, noisy, nonsense. oh ho ho!
The characteristic(s) you love of yourself is /are:
I am SUCH an angel. whahahah!
On the contrary, the characteristic (s) you hate of yourself is/ are:
I am SUCH an angel.
The most ideal person you want to be is:
Spongebob. or Jennifer Love Hewitt. hehehe!
For people that like and care for you, say something to them:
I think you're smelly. but i am smelly too! HEHEHEHEHE!
Pass this quiz to 10 people
1. Jessica
2. Susanna
3. Osborne
4. Ming Liang
5. Shone
6. Kelda
7. Sarah
8. Charlene
9. Hui mei
10. Geraldine
Who is No. 6 having a relationship with?
SEB. HAHAHAHA!
Is No. 9 a female or male?
Female.
If No. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
erm. love is blind.
How about No. 8 and 5?
HAHAHAHA! NO! then char need to carry shone up to kiss. HAHAHA!
What is No. 2 studying about?
lousy JC life! haha!
When was the last time you had a chat with No.3?
last night on msn.
What kind of music band does No. 8 like?
music band..Maroon 5! =D
No. 1 has any siblings?
Yes. 1 sister and i asked her "who is that? your friend ah?" oh ho ho! clever me!
Will you woo No. 3?
erm. no. i don't accept hairless guy whiter than me. hahah!
How about No. 7?
OF COURSE! =DDDD *winks and kicks derrick aside*
Is No. 4 single?
Yes.
What's the surname of No. 5?
omg. is it Ng or Tan? I think its Tan. yes. it's Tan.
What's the name of No. 10? Geraldine Eeeeeeeeee. hehehe!
What's the hobby of No. 4?
romancing NPCC and his turtles. HAHAHAH!
Do No.5 and 9 get along well?
erm. they don't know each other.
Where is No. 2 studying at?
Yishun JC. haha!
Talk something casually about No. 1?
Jian. HAHAHAH!
Have you tried developing feelings for No. 8?
N0 can't do. i can't even reach her head if i wanted to smooch her.
Where does No. 9 live at?
Boon Keng. hehe!
What colour does No. 4 likes?
uh-oh. i dunno lei. black? omg! ml! tell me!
Are No. 5 and 1 best friends?
erm. not really. haha.
Does No. 7 like No. 2?
they dunno each other. haha.
How do you get to know No. 2?
cox she was my classmate from sec school.
Does No. 1 have any pets?
not anymore. byebye fishies and guinea pig.
Is No. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
hahaha!to derrick.
PR is over. i finish it at literally the last min. hahaha. spasm. ha. both my black n blue pen died on me. best. luckily i had a trusty green pen. which is why i say. NEVER TRUST BALL PENS! commiss tmr. GG. haha!
tag #1:
4 Jobs I've had in my life
1. waitress.
2. cash register doctor.
3. road show presenter.
4. moon cake seller.
4 Movies I can watch over and over again
1. The Simpsons Movie
2. The Spongebob Squarepants Movie.
3. Flushed Away.
4. A Walk to Remember.
4 Places I've been on Vacation to
1. Malaysia.
2. Batam.
3. Perth.
4. Sentosa. HAHAHAHAAHAH!
4 Of my Favorite Dishes
1. Tom Yam Soup.
2. Claypot Vermicelli.
3. Mussels.
4. Crabs.
4 Places I would like to Visit
1. Europe.
2. North America.
3. South America.
4. Australia.
4 Most overused Words
1. Good..very good.
2. Fuck
3. Na bei.
4. wtf.
4 TV Shows I love to Watch
1. CSI.
2. Ghost Whisperer.
3. Supernatural.
4. Scrubs.
4 Bloggers I am Tagging
1. Jessica
2. Kelda
3. Charlene
4. Sarah
tag #2
List out the top 5 presents you wish for (not in order of importance):
1. straight hair. =(
2. Clothing! =D
3. Money! hehehehe!
4. BRA! HAHAHAHAHHAA! i'm serious.
5. Games!
Answer the following questions:
The person who tagged you is:
Kimberly.
Your relationship with her is:
unusual friend. oh ho h0!
Your 5 impressions of Kim:
1. Funny.
2. Alcoholic.
3. Listening Ear.
4. Chiller.
5. Talk cock.
The most memorable thing she had done for you:
Walked bare-footed along the streets of tpy cox she lent me her slippers as my heels were killing me. =))))
The most memorable words she had said to you :
she's the ultimate champion. HAHAHAHHA!!!
If he/ she becomes your lover,you will:
sing for her. HAHAHAHAHA! *winks*
If he/ she becomes your lover, things he/ she has to improve on will be:
stop wearing sports bra. dolling herself up.
If he/ she becomes your enemy, you will:
steal all her sports bra. HAHAHAHA.
If he/ she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
She prevented me from watching my Spongebob movie again. haha!
The most desired thing you want to do for him/ her now is:
Give her oil for her exams.
Your overall impression of him/ her is:
ultimate champion. hehehe!
How do you think people around you will feel about you?
loud, cold, noisy, nonsense. oh ho ho!
The characteristic(s) you love of yourself is /are:
I am SUCH an angel. whahahah!
On the contrary, the characteristic (s) you hate of yourself is/ are:
I am SUCH an angel.
The most ideal person you want to be is:
Spongebob. or Jennifer Love Hewitt. hehehe!
For people that like and care for you, say something to them:
I think you're smelly. but i am smelly too! HEHEHEHEHE!
Pass this quiz to 10 people
1. Jessica
2. Susanna
3. Osborne
4. Ming Liang
5. Shone
6. Kelda
7. Sarah
8. Charlene
9. Hui mei
10. Geraldine
Who is No. 6 having a relationship with?
SEB. HAHAHAHA!
Is No. 9 a female or male?
Female.
If No. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
erm. love is blind.
How about No. 8 and 5?
HAHAHAHA! NO! then char need to carry shone up to kiss. HAHAHA!
What is No. 2 studying about?
lousy JC life! haha!
When was the last time you had a chat with No.3?
last night on msn.
What kind of music band does No. 8 like?
music band..Maroon 5! =D
No. 1 has any siblings?
Yes. 1 sister and i asked her "who is that? your friend ah?" oh ho ho! clever me!
Will you woo No. 3?
erm. no. i don't accept hairless guy whiter than me. hahah!
How about No. 7?
OF COURSE! =DDDD *winks and kicks derrick aside*
Is No. 4 single?
Yes.
What's the surname of No. 5?
omg. is it Ng or Tan? I think its Tan. yes. it's Tan.
What's the name of No. 10? Geraldine Eeeeeeeeee. hehehe!
What's the hobby of No. 4?
romancing NPCC and his turtles. HAHAHAH!
Do No.5 and 9 get along well?
erm. they don't know each other.
Where is No. 2 studying at?
Yishun JC. haha!
Talk something casually about No. 1?
Jian. HAHAHAH!
Have you tried developing feelings for No. 8?
N0 can't do. i can't even reach her head if i wanted to smooch her.
Where does No. 9 live at?
Boon Keng. hehe!
What colour does No. 4 likes?
uh-oh. i dunno lei. black? omg! ml! tell me!
Are No. 5 and 1 best friends?
erm. not really. haha.
Does No. 7 like No. 2?
they dunno each other. haha.
How do you get to know No. 2?
cox she was my classmate from sec school.
Does No. 1 have any pets?
not anymore. byebye fishies and guinea pig.
Is No. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
hahaha!to derrick.
PR is over. i finish it at literally the last min. hahaha. spasm. ha. both my black n blue pen died on me. best. luckily i had a trusty green pen. which is why i say. NEVER TRUST BALL PENS! commiss tmr. GG. haha!
danced on the moon at 1:24 pm.
susanna shee shi min
Monday, August 20, 2007
SUSANNA SHEE SHI MIN!
you see. i still remember your full name. tsk tsk. i am so disappointed in you. *shakes finger* haha! ok. no say no have. i give you big hint. my name is tze-yee. HAHA! eh. cannot lidat la. why you for nothing take out ALL my unglam pictures and put on your blog? you say. haha. this cannot do. you have TOO many unglam photos of me. you take take them and threaten me anytime. haha! but i also buay pai. i oso have a lot of your unglam pics. let's all unglam together! =DDD
yes. i can blackmail you too. haha. and of course i remember butthead. how can i forget? haha.d don't you just love your junior? haha! remember that no matter what happens i'll always love you! follow your heart and you'll never go wrong. be strong and no matter what decision you make, i'll support you all the way k? =) if you ever need some one to talk to give me a call or msg! =D good luck for your As! and after that get your lazy ass off your couch and go to work! no zoo pls! haha! miss you! =))
you see. i still remember your full name. tsk tsk. i am so disappointed in you. *shakes finger* haha! ok. no say no have. i give you big hint. my name is tze-yee. HAHA! eh. cannot lidat la. why you for nothing take out ALL my unglam pictures and put on your blog? you say. haha. this cannot do. you have TOO many unglam photos of me. you take take them and threaten me anytime. haha! but i also buay pai. i oso have a lot of your unglam pics. let's all unglam together! =DDD
yes. i can blackmail you too. haha. and of course i remember butthead. how can i forget? haha.d don't you just love your junior? haha! remember that no matter what happens i'll always love you! follow your heart and you'll never go wrong. be strong and no matter what decision you make, i'll support you all the way k? =) if you ever need some one to talk to give me a call or msg! =D good luck for your As! and after that get your lazy ass off your couch and go to work! no zoo pls! haha! miss you! =))
danced on the moon at 3:16 pm.